2016

2016:

Lee's anemic. Has colonoscopy
Mom almost dies. Has a prolonged hospitalization and recovery.
Jake has a bumpy year. Moguls
My pelvis gets drilled. Thankfully not cancer in the bone.
Nothing is any better with a relationship.

It's been a rough year. A lot of the time I feel angry. I don't know why. I'm not owed anything.

I'm irritable. I don't know if I'm doing a good enough job with my kids. Mostly they are good, but they aren't perfect and when things fall short of perfection it irks me. One doesn't clean up after herself. The other has mediocre grades. One has a problem with honesty.

I harbor resentment at times. I give it to God and then I take back a tiny piece of bitterness. It's hard to unclench my fist. Maybe I'll never understand it.

Maybe it's menopause. I still haven't cried. I might need to cry all of 2017 to catch up.